Let’s Talk Mental Health: Sleep Anxiety and Insomnia.

Let’s Talk Mental Health: Sleep Anxiety and Insomnia.

A truly ‘ideal’ lifestyle – the definition of which is subjective – is, I would argue, impossible to achieve. In some instances, mere time constraints may get in the way: you miss workouts because of upcoming exams, choose convenient food while travelling, sleep less than your body needs because of work. Sometimes, it’s mental health. And speaking of sleep, that’s exactly what I want to address today. I’ve had a love-hate relationship with sleep for quite some time, and a desire to de-stigmatise mental health while promoting the ‘physical’ aspects of a healthy lifestyle is one of my objectives on social media. As of recent, my ability to manage sleeping issues has improved considerably hence I decided to take my internalised debates to the blog, muse about insomnia (with sleep anxiety being a central point of discussion) and hopefully help others unlucky enough to experience these issues.

How to deal with insomnia

The fact that insomnia affects up to one in three people in the UK scares me, given the indispensability of sleep in maintaining your physical and mental health. Until around March or April 2017, I took pride in being able to fall asleep within minutes: sure, sometimes I stayed awake out of choice to complete a pressing homework assignment or returned home later than usual after a gym session, but once I was in bed with my eyes closed, I’d be asleep in under fifteen minutes. I woke up no later than seven even on weekends and had a concrete sleeping schedule. But when a month remained until my exams and a mere couple of weeks before study leave, my cortisol (why can I never remember how to spell this word?!) levels skyrocketed and each night, I found it harder and harder to fall asleep. Then, one night it took me five hours to fall asleep. The struggle started with racing thoughts about the upcoming exams, their importance, the revision I could be doing instead of laying in bed, and when I spotted midnight on the clock, I imagined my alarm going off six hours later. I imagined the effects of sleep deprivation: grogginess, inability to focus, inability to comprehend information about quantum mechanics. After that, everything changed.

Unfortunately, many people fall into the same cycle: a ‘normal’ cause, such as stresses at work or school, keep them awake for a few nights. They begin to experience onsets of sleep deprivation side effects, and the longer they go without an adequate night of sleep the more their desperation for those eight hours grows. For me, this cycle developed into overwhelming sleep anxiety. When I finished my last exam, I thought ‘okay, I don’t have to be up at six tomorrow, I don’t have any more exams to worry about, I can sleep for as long as I need’. And guess what – it didn’t happen. I had such high expectations of myself: a return to my ability to fall asleep within fifteen minutes. And when it didn’t happen, I started to panic, to question why I wasn’t drifting off despite exhaustion, tossed and turned for three hours. For several weeks afterwards, this issue hindered my ability to enjoy the longest summer of my life. I walked around dreading nighttimes, the hours spent watching the clock and the harder I fought the anxiety, the harder it pushed back. Whenever I managed to secure the magic seven or eight hours I personally need to feel awake, I’d think ‘yes – it’s finally over’, and put too much pressure on myself to emulate the success the following night. I was constantly panicked about the accumulation of restless nights and the effects they were having on my body, with thoughts such as ‘tonight is the night insomnia drives me crazy’ increasing in frequency. It’s not fun. And it’s not great when you can’t relate to those millennial-friendly quotes about loving sleep.

Of course, I tried your conventional remedies: establishing a nighttime routine, turning off all electronic devices, drinking tea and taking herbal medicines. Such solutions help many people and I recommend implementing them especially in the early stages of insomnia / if sleep anxiety isn’t a problem. However, for me they exacerbated the issue: I associated such activities with the upcoming hours of laying awake. Neither herbal remedies nor melatonin helped because when my head touched the pillow I would think: ‘okay, I’ve taken medication, now I must fall asleep’. And we all understand the contradictory nature of sleep – the harder you try, the more elusive it becomes. When sleep within fifteen minutes didn’t happen, the panic set in and the whole cycle started again.


Getting a good night’s sleep can be elusive for many people

So. How did I return to a healthier relationship with sleep? The number one thing I would recommend to others suffering from the same or a similar problem is focusing on your mindset. This has helped me immensely. See sleep deprivation as unpleasant, but not deadly. Most adults do not get the recommended 7-9 hours, most take half an hour to fall asleep, most people go through occasional periods in their life when their sleeping pattern is damaged. Your body is smart, your subconscious understands the importance of rest, and regardless of how long it takes you will fall asleep eventually. If the issue isn’t solved in one night, it’s not the end of the world, and you won’t develop the horrible diseases listed on WebMD as side effects of insomnia.

Try to distract yourself during the day, avoid thinking about sleep (and hence dreading it) and develop an attitude of acceptance rather than determination (I can’t believe those words are actually coming out of my mouth). i.e., don’t think ‘I must fall asleep today! I believe I can do it! I can get eight hours!’, instead changing the thought to ‘it would be nice to fall asleep quickly today and get enough rest before my alarm goes off, but if I don’t manage to do so today, it’s not a disaster’. Acceptance is crucial in dealing with anything anxiety-related, including anxiety surrounding sleep, and this change in my mindset has helped me perhaps more than anything else.

Changing my routine helped a lot, which seems counterproductive, but it can break the ‘go to bed at a particular time – lie awake for three hours – eventually drift off’ pattern. For example, going to sleep at a different time or in a different location can be useful. When I was travelling in Russia, I typically fell asleep much faster because my body didn’t have enough time to associate our accommodation with that horrible self-perpetuating cycle. Nowadays, if I find myself struggling, I sleep downstairs for a couple of nights, change my bedsheets, do anything that helps me disassociate my room from insomnia.

Practicing mindfulness is something else I’d recommend to anyone suffering from insomnia, whether it’s anxiety related or not. I use tools such as the Headspace app and random videos from YouTube to learn different techniques. In modern-day application, mindfulness is deprived of its spiritual connotations and much of it is to do with the whole acceptance principle I talked about above. Accept that you feel anxious, focus on the anxiety without judging yourself for its presence, which will paradoxically reduce the feeling, unlike fighting to suppress it, which in many cases makes the anxiety worse. If I’m wide awake at night and my mind begins to wonder, or panic settles in, I divert my attention to a physical sensation, like the weight of the duvet, or the different sounds I can hear outside. Really focusing on such things, and ensuring the mind stays focused on something external (without being too harsh on yourself) can be a wonderful technique for quelling racing thoughts.

Finally, if you find yourself awake for a long time, get up and do something for a few minutes to avoid panicking, then try again. If I do this, I avoid checking the time because this only makes matters worse and once it gets to a certain time, there’s nothing I can do about it. I can’t turn back the clock (as you can tell, acceptance is key once again).

Of course, this is only my experience and if you’re suffering from any form of sleep disorder, go and see your doctor! Even if they don’t prescribe strong medication or you choose not to take it (like myself), they will be able to offer advice or recommend some form of counselling, like CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy). Please do let me know if you found this post helpful or interesting and well, I wish you a pleasant night of sleep if you’re reading this in the evening!

Loads of love, Maria xoxo

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  1. August 15, 2017 / 10:39 am

    I have always had issues struggling to fall asleep. I tried all the usual as well such as cutting back on technology and having a bath before bed. I realised that I procrastinate and this led to me over analysing and worrying about tasks instead of sleep. I love what you said about the mindset and I think it is very true. Changing our thoughts are can make a big difference.

    • August 18, 2017 / 6:58 am

      I’m so sorry that you’ve had difficulties with your sleep – I hope you feel better nowadays!! Changing your mindset can be such a powerful trick towards achieving anything xox

  2. August 18, 2017 / 7:50 pm

    Couldn’t agree more about attitude being key. I used to fear looking at the clock and I would be very picky trying to count the hours of sleep I’d be able to get. Best thing to do is avoid any sort of judgment! Don’t count hours. I sufferred with insomnia for about a year when my OCD was at it’s worst. I found great refuge in mindfulness and listening to music or an audiobook in the evening, in my bed in the dark.

    • August 19, 2017 / 8:27 am

      Aww I am so happy that you’ve managed to find refuge – mindfulness is so helpful when it comes to dealing with anything anxiety related such as OCD or insomnia. I hope you are doing well dear xox

  3. August 18, 2017 / 8:19 pm

    I found this so helpful! I’m having trouble sleeping lately due to anxiety so it was useful to read from the perspective of someone in a similar boat – great post!

    Carla x

    • August 19, 2017 / 8:28 am

      I am so glad that you found it helpful! Insomnia is such a common and horrible problem and my goal is to help as many people as possible. Thank you so much for your lovely comment and I hope you’re doing well xox

  4. August 18, 2017 / 8:31 pm

    I have never struggled with insomnia but I have struggled with anxiety and found mindfulness an absolute godsend! I used apps like HeadSpace and calm before bed and now I don’t even need them, my muscles just relax when I want them too (I mean, that did take a few years but hey, it worked). I am glad that you are heading towards a healthier relationship with sleep and I hope you keep getting closer hun x
    Claire | clairesyear.com

    • August 19, 2017 / 8:31 am

      I really want to spread awareness about mindfulness because it is something that is easy to implement into your daily routine and it has helped so many people in dealing with anxiety related issues – I am so glad that you’ve managed to find a way that works for you. Thank you so much for your comment, my sleep has definitely improved so much over the last couple of weeks and hopefully I will be able to return to a healthy sleeping routine in the foreseeable future! xox

  5. September 11, 2017 / 3:15 am

    I needed to read this. I, like you, was able to sleep instantly, and before, I never had issues with sleep. But, recently I feel like there is so much to do in so little time, and I find myself at night going over these things in my head. Sometimes, I’ll fall asleep easily, but wake at 1 in the morning and stay awake for a few hours. So, I’m thankful to have found this post. I’ll try to put in action your tips!

    Natalie | http://nataliesalchemy.wordpress.com

    • September 11, 2017 / 5:29 am

      I’m so sad to hear that you’re struggling with your sleep – waking up in the middle of the night can be awful especially if you can’t drift off again 😞 Thank you for reading and I really hope my tips will help you out! Much love x

  6. September 14, 2017 / 12:42 am

    Great post Maria, makes me know how lucky I am to be able to fall asleep quickly at 8.30am and wake refreshed by 5.30am…..

    • September 14, 2017 / 5:46 am

      Thank you so much! And yeah it’s a good sleeping pattern to fall into, I am glad to hear that you found one which works for you 🙂 x

  7. September 30, 2017 / 2:07 am

    Wow, I love this post! I have always had trouble falling asleep — it once took me three hours before I finally dozed off (tho that’s not as bad as five hours). I definitely freak out and get super anxious about not falling asleep. I’ve cried a few times because it is extremely frustrating to BE tired and WANT sleep, but not get it. I love the “accepting” outlook you have on insomnia, and I’ll definitely try it out! (I’m taking melatonin now and it really helps.) Great post!

    • September 30, 2017 / 6:08 am

      I’m so glad you found this post helpful and I’m sorry to hear that you’ve been struggling with insomnia as well. Mine is much better nowadays (it takes me less than 30 minutes to fall asleep most nights) so it definitely does get better once you find a technique that works for you. I can totally understand how frustrating it can be and I used to cry a lot myself as well! Hope everything works out for you soon x

  8. October 3, 2017 / 1:34 pm

    It’s great that people are starting to talk about these things more. What technique have you found the most helpful?

    • October 3, 2017 / 1:53 pm

      Definitely acceptance! I’ve had many sleepless nights and sure, I felt crappy the next day but nothing dreadful happened so thinking that if I don’t manage to get to sleep it’s not the end of the world always helps me drift off faster – and something I’ve been doing recently is reverse psychology, i.e. laying down and closing my eyes but trying my hardest to stay awake usually results in me drifting off!

  9. December 13, 2017 / 11:52 pm

    Excellent, informative post, thanks!

    Headspace app is great, and I find reading an actual book fantastic to lure me into drowsiness.

    On Friday, I’m posting about how playing guitar has helped me reduce anxiety and increase consciousness.

    Peace, A.

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